Have you ever felt like there is this disconnect between who you feel others expect you to be and who you would rather become? Because, same. For years I have been chasing this idea of who I believed was the ideal me and it has been a bumpy road to admit that to myself. And so, I’ve ended up here. Writing this as the start of this blog I have been trying to perfect for the better part of four years. In my feigned wisdom I was trying to get it perfect from the start. But, you see, if I was able to accomplish that then what would be the point of this blog– or anything really– if there was no growth to be had in the process?
I figured with the start of 2019 I might as well do something that scares me a little, to live on the edge, and provide myself with this sort of outlet and see if I’m not the only one. I want to see and know and discover and learn if there are others like me who fear of showing a side of them that they think others don’t want to see. Don’t get me wrong, I think I identify as an introvert. My happy place is staying at home organizing, making a mess, and reorganizing again. I like movies and TV shows (especially the cop ones). And as much as I like going on dates with my husband, I also really love making a mess of the kitchen, at home, myself and experimenting on a new recipe. I think it helps me embrace the idea of learning from the mistakes I make and picking myself up out of the ashes (really it’s just a pile of dirty dishes but I would still compare the scene to that of a site where a bomb went off). But I also like exploring and learning and experiencing something new. I like turning strangers into friends and neighbors into family.
So here goes nothing. Hi, I’m Kati. I love my little corner of the world, but I know I need to expand my horizons. I’ll always come back to my roots. My past has brought me to where I am today. And while it’s not where I want to end up, I can’t really complain. So I ask, join me on my journey and let’s grow together, finding our place in the world and discovering who we are.